Was reading someone's blog and I was really envy that they could achieve what they want in life. And, I can't.
I guess I am jealous. Really do. I mean, life is not going as what I have planned earlier. Many thing change and plan always doesn't apply the same way anymore. Like what kantha loves to say, "is impossible to plan everything out" and tada tada tada. I argued, telling him that his statement doesn't apply to my life. Oh well, as time passes, he was right.

Certain thing you can't predict neither control. And luck always counts in. It happens that I have shitty luck. I always push myself to achieve more than what I wanted, in order to be perfect. Till a preu course that crash everything down, bomb.

After getting advice from the asshole, all I can do for now is quickly find another aim and go for it. I hope it's a good change. Perhaps god wants me to do something diff ? :)

Live positively is all I want now. Looking forward to my uni life. :D


And, happy valentine's time day ruban <3 thank you for everything.